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Date : Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Seriously aku mendak!!! hahakz... mcm nie lah my wednesday n friday wen i have O.S or S.A.D.. mendak giler... at least mon and tue, php and html ok jgk codings, ader gak buat kerje n bz sepenuh maser sbb sibuk ajar org plus uat keje sendirik... tpi kadang pon rimas jgk.. org asyik paggil my name... tanyer nie, tanyer tu... mcm lah team diorg tkde org yg pandai2... aku jgk kener.. haiz.. tapi kn.. tkper.. sbb, ilmu nie, kiter tk bleh lokek ngan org.. tol tk;D n belive it or nt, my class was left wif 11 ppl just now.. more then half went off.. dunnoe y, maeb bcos of peers.. but yeah.. i had 2 persevere... stay in class evn though i had d feeling to go off too...;D n yesh at the end of the day, i learn new thing... nyway, dis sun, 15 nov, will be going up to KL for winners4life convention... den in dec insyaAllah, 18-21, will go up to Port Dickson for "WAW".. tk tau aper maksud dier.. but its a leadership & family day 4 days 3 nights...;D looking 4ward to dis.. hopefully my whole family will be going... looking 4ward to other winners events... hahakz eventhoug i'm not 1 yet.. but soon.. very soon.. insyaAllah(: doakan...:)
Date : Tuesday, November 03, 2009
Well have to move on right:) dets what i am doing..:) n i guess i had... no use of loving sum1 hu doesn't feel the same way u have 4 dem.. and i've already stopped.. i never wished to c his number appearing on my screen ever agian... even if it did.. i might not reply.. c d situation.. i'm jus letting him do watever he wants... i'm not gonna interfere... he lives it the way he wants to.. he can lie how much he wants to.. i jus wan to get out of the life that is full of lies to me..
kau selingkuh~B8 aku tk percaya cintamu padaku...
aku kn percaya... mmg kau selingkuh..
cintamu kini tk ku hargai...
sll ku ingat smpai mati..
kini aku kn sll mencari..
cinta sejati yg ku miliki...
aku tk percaya cintamu padaku...
aku kn percaya mmg kau selingkuh...
menduakan cinta kita, hingga ku merana akukn terima juga, dengan ini semua...
I do ask myself is it worth it, leaving in a world full of lies.. if dets hu u r, den i can't do anything.. u lie to d 1 u said u love.. is det wat love is 4 u? well, det's not my defi of love.. so i guess, i'm leaving.. n 1's i go, i will nvr turn back... it's also a reason y i ask ppl not to put in too much hope.. u know hu u r... i'm sorry if i had hurt u in any way.. i just can't accept u.. it's not det i dun love you... Cos wen i love, i will never stop.. but my trust 4 u 2 be extra careful with my heart is not there.. and for me, trust i a relationship is important for it to work well, other than kepercayaan, harus ada kesetiaan, keikhlasan, kejujuran, komunikasi dan persefahaman antara 1 sama lain...
Well baby, if u think i will fall, your wrong.. cos wat ur doing right now is just making me grow stronger... u might have underestimated me... ~ setiap yg berlaku, aku jadi kan pengalaman dan pedoman agar aku dpt meneruskan hidup ku... walau beribu kali aku jatuh, aku akan bangkit semula dengan lebih bersemangat... aku anggap kau hanya sebagai awan yang berlalu dalam hidupku...- just another passing by cloud...
u said that u are jus stupid... and wen i ask y u said det, u said that u r stupid of leaving me.. 1st of cos u r.. cos ur blinded to c which is true and which is not.. 2nd, wat i can say is i never regret of u leaving.. there is still sum1 out there that will be able to c... hu will appreciate my love, my care and everything abt me.. (insyaAllah...) :) 3rd, i was glad u did leave me.. cos i one's told u det im selfish.. selfish in a way of sharing ur love wif sum1 else(other den ur family member of cos...) and i told u det if u have sum1 else, it's better for you to leave me.. dets y i'm glad..:)
Well, sum1 like u needs alot of support... i really hope d person u choose will give alot of support det u need... tetap kan diri dlm ape saje kepututsan yg kau lakukn... sbb if u ask me, i dun like dis kind of ppl... fickle minded... Hope det ur living a good life.. Sentiasa ku doakn yg terbaik memanti diri mu... Seriously, der's no hatred.. dun get me wrong.. cos i'll not hate sum1 i 1's fell in love with.. dis incudes u, my 1st love... :) ~Still loving you but i can't be with you...~
Date : Friday, October 30, 2009
WOW! klau nk tau aper yg aku raser skrg, aku raser teramat lah lucu cerita cinta monyet... haha i dun get it... knaper mesti kau ckp cinta biler hati kau bukan utk aku? dan bodoh nyer aku, terpedaya dgn kata2 kau... Today, at 6 in d morning i gt a msg from sum1, kater dier da ader pmpn... n d best thing is, i did not even cried.. EXPECTED.. guys.. klau hidung dah mancung.. gini lah dier... semua pmpn dier nk ambik... n yaeh.. sedara dier tnayer siaper pmpn e2.... actually aku yg suroh tanyer.. n aper hubungan dier.. hehe:D n he asn.. name, tinggal kat p.r, den skola at the same skool... hubungan, matair.. aru 3 hari.. n sedara dier ckp, aru 3 hari tpi dlm gambar, nmpk da mcm 3 minggu.. and i asked a favor from him, ask to slap det stupid *tot* hard in his face.. now jus waiting 4 his msg, saying his job is done.. :D aft det, i'll send d person yg kener tampar tu a msg.. n jus c wat happens:D Haiz.. kalau larh di beri peluang, aku yg nk tampar dier sendirik.. tk yah suruh org lain...
ok update.. update..:D he just got i slap from his own cuz:D haha haiz.. mcm seronok.. tpi lagi seronok lau aku uat sendirik k iyah stop it... get over it..
i start from d beggining larh.. got a msg from my "informer" (yg tak pernah aku mintak dier blang pon...) at 6 am in d morning... "iyah, ~~ bukan nyk hurt ur feeling nmpk sgt he suka pompuan laen n da mataer, ~~ nk ngok hp dia psl ade pix dia ngn pompuan dia step hp rosak padehal hp aru" at dis point i was not able to say anything larh... cos i dunnoe if its true or not... so i ask ~~ to ask him siaper d gal, and relationship dier and d gal... k... waited 4 2 hours 4 d reply, giving d gals name, skool and her hmetwn... and relationship when ~~ ask, he says mataer, 3 hari... but wen ~~ saw their pix, they are like 3 week, ~~ said, not me, cos i was not der..:D
k den aft i got 2 know det ~~ da help me slap his face, i send him dis msg: "Klau da rase tamparan e2, det was 4 everything.. ur lying 2 me n my welcom gift 2 u..Dets y i say ur love 4 me is fake.. U never had anything 2wards me.. U salah org utk tipu..:) n even if u say d fb thing is false, i guess hati pmpn 2 lagi berharga kn, u nk kene jaga.. Jaga hati pmpn tu.. Dun let her b like me, dtipu biler benar menyayangi..:)" tu lah aku.. biler marah, geran sedih pon tetap nk kasi senyuman kan... :) 4 me it's all a learning experience.. insyaAllah i can handle dis... won't cry:D cos dey are not worth 4 ppl like him.. dey dun deserve sum1 like me in thier life...
n i told my close fren abt d slap.. d reply was: "Aku da agak si -- 2 mmg penipu.. Kak aku sendirik ckp adeq beradeq dier termasok die tkle dipercaya.. Nw u've noe e truth n itz easy 4 u 2 move on rite? tk baek sey die bodoh2kn kau.. Ape die nk sbnarnye frm kau.. Kau nyer airmate semuanye sia2 je.. Tkpelah gal, wat goes ard comes ard.. " actually i oso dunnoe wat he wan from me.. ntah lah.. bahan experiment dier kot... hmm But watever it is, i'm moving on...:) no worries... cos a hero lies in me;P
btw, "~~" is 4 informer, "--" stand 4 him..:) d msg-es det i wrote, i didn't change a thing.. i write back wat is send n recieve excactly how they were.. ene d style of writing..
Date : Monday, October 26, 2009
Yesterday was screw gone longgar day:D hehe I donnoe y I call it det way.. but I was high when I woke up dis morning.. haha I oso dunnoe wat I dreamt about.. ntah lah.. yst being random of me, msg 3 ppl asking d same question. “what would you do when you miss sum1?” hehe got 2 diff ans but 1 didn’t receive my msg.. haiz.. lau da tk pakai num blang lah org kn.. tk lah wasted aku msg.. ishk… tk paham lah nie org.. but yeah 4get abt det, 2day, was a rushing, full of laughter day:) yeah even though stress abit, doing codings in the morning, but it was worth my time:) haiz… leceh kan jadi org pandai nie:P team members semua depend on me to do the solution.. aku nie dah lah slow ckit utk abeskn solution.. plak tu kener ajar lagik 3 bdk yg tk dtg last week.. but yeah proud of myself last week, did the codes on my own n I presented it to my class and faci said det it was wat he wanted and so called d model ans:D WeEee:P yeah iyah!! U go girl;P Hehe:P and the thing is, last team, my team was oni a two man team, n I manage to finish everything… but today.. I didn’t:( got the model ans from Matt(Azhar), my classmate, known him since prim skool, den enter the same sec skool sec 4 and 5 same class den now in poly in d same course and class sumore!! AsyiK2 muker dier jek.. haha! Paling aku tkleh angz larh.. dier peh baju pink.. punyer larh striking… n last sem, biler aku nmpk dier jek, mesti pink asl dier pkai pink jek, aku nmpk dier.. nasib lah nasib..
ok after a long day of staring at codes, after skool, rushed of home.. cos attending dad’s graduation ceremony… I dunnoe graduate from wat haha!! But yeah.. usually, aft gradutation, after everything ends then we have food right, but dis, abit unusual, we had food 1st then the ceremony… food was nice:D boncet perut.. tpi dah tk se boncet dulu.. hmm.. all dis life events cause me to lose appetite in food.. lost weight actually… was 50 den.. but now, 46.. haiz e2 pn sbb aku makan.. lau tk mkn tu ari, aper jadi? haiz… iyah, iyah.. wat happen to you.. haha u can be my hubby if u can carry me!! Hehe oh god… speaking of carrying.. haiz.. he was d first guy to carry me… n he said det I was heavier than his kakak sedara.. hehe no no… k 4get bout det… hmm.. back to 2days event, went to Singapore post after getting ready:D wore my dress.. jarang sekali I wear det dress.. Planned to wear it in any special occasions but now, not much of it.. bz wif skool la babe.. haha n yeah celebs like suhaimi yusof, zamri.. pak malau, if u know det always sms to ria, also graduated as well.. mediacorp ppl, not to take foto of cos, but to graduate as well.. masok skola balik lah kater kn… hehe ader2 jek lau main2kn namer org… d room was truly lighted wif positive attitude and full of laughter.. tk kirer siaper yg kener, dey understand and tk tersinggung pon wif suhaimi’s sarcastic-ness . serious ader2 jek... dad was d first to go and take the certs, haha alphabetical order lahkn.. and I would really like to thank Cik Salim and family 4 introducing us to dis product.. 4life... it changed our lives and health for the better. And just FYI, I has sinus since I was 3 mths old, means, I cannot be too cold and actually cannot drink cold drinks (tapi degil jgk hehe) and to make it worst, after finishing o lvl, went to poly, the whole campus is air-conditioned... meaning I will be sick… having flu every day and actually after taking this product, my health is improving, not much sinus early in d morning, even if I have, it would not be as long as what I have b4 eating this TF… at first actually I dunnow abt dis product, I was jus a so called Ginny pig, dad tried it on me.. And yeah it was effective.. Previously tried a lot of other methods, I still rmbr parents giving me a drink, raser dier sunnguh tk sedap.. air ikan ke aper entah.. haha last2 I didn’t drink, abi yg kener togok 1 botol that was actually meant for me.. hehe nottie aku!!:P den outing my head over a boiled water, not into larh of cos… just over it, let the steam air… byk lagik lah..
U just know dis from me, u have not known more amazing stories from the celebrates themselves, suhaimi wif gout, zamri wif leg prob, and another amazing story was Adi Rahman, of his cancerous journey and after consuming this product. And ordinary people with asthmatic problem and after taking riovida, no mush of attacks anymore… Wanna know more, u’d hav 2 attend 4life events hehe, and I’m going to be a member soon (Insya Allah) semoga d murahkn rezeki aku, keluarga ku, dan mereka2 yg dalam perjuangan yang sama(winners 4life) dlm mencari jalan yg terbaik dan halal di sisi agama, utk berkongsi ilmu yg kiter ader ini supaya dapat kiter samer2 meningkat kn kesihatan kita utk beribadah kepada Allah… amin… :)
Date : Sunday, October 25, 2009
I Just want to get out of all this!!;( tired.. lazy... headache evrytime.. everything!!;( missing ppl in life.. i just miss myself.. i just miss smiling sincerly:( Sorry if i dun repli 2 any of ur msg-es.. i'm tired, lazy.. sorry 4 all det.. didn't mean to waste ur 5cents on me...
~Aku hanya satu persinggahan sementara...~
Date : Friday, October 23, 2009
Hingga sekarang, aku masih mencari apa silap yang telah aku laku kan.. setiap kali aku Tanya kan padamu jawapanmu sama.. aku tidak melakukan apa2 salah… benarkah itu?? Tapi knapa jika aku tidak bersalah, kita jadi sebegini? Bukan aku yg hendak keadaan jadi begini.. bukan aku yang hendak memputuskan hubungan ini.. kenapa kau tidak memberi tahu ku yang sebenarnya? Knapa harus kau merahsiakan perkara yg sebenarnya? Kerana kau berahsia ini lah yang menyebab kan aku kata begitu.. menyatakan supaya jangan hubungi aku lagi.. dan sbb rahsia yg kau simpan juga lah hubungan kita renggang… dan akhirnya jadi begini… mengapa syg?? Megapa harus jadi begini??
Kamu yang ku kenal dahulu bukan begini.. aku tahu keadaan yg memaksa… aku tahu apa yg berlaku keatasmu membuat kau jadi begini… Tapi aku juga tahu kau bukan seperti ini.. dan bagaimanakah caranya utk aku sentiasa berada di sisi mu jika kau begini?? Aku hanya manusia biasa… if really ur love was true, u’ll let me know wat’s disturbing u… the least I cn do is just listen… I cn’t give u d solution to ur problem... But I can give suggestions… SHARE… that’s the word u use everytime… but now?? Hmm… if u say u’re hurt… den wat abt me??
Mengapa kau harus berfikir aku akan meninggalkan diri mu?? Sedangkan tidak pernah terlintas pn di fikiran ku utk melaku kn sebegitu… if u never knew, I’m a person of my words... I do wat I say… I keep my promises as much as possible... n never wud I promise sumthing if I think that wat I promise will not happen… hmm I guess det u never knew that…
N I’m actually not d jealous type… but the careful 1… I was not in dis relationship… and det’s y it ended dis way… acceptance is all I can do… 4 all d mistakes that I’ve done… u’ll never know how I feel.. kau hanya dapat menduga.. ttp bukan merasa…
Posted dis on my FB… “ Iyah Khairiyah It's wen the road has ended.. but the only way for you is to move on.. :) Khidupan.. ada kalanya mencabar utk seseorang.. tapi tetap kita harus hadapinya.. Ada hikmah atas apa yang berlaku.. Hanya tuhan dan nabinya yang lebih mengetahui.. ~Kesabaran dan ketabahan adalah kunci kejayaan~ (Insya Allah...)
4 the sake 4 those hu dun understand, wat I just said was, “Life sumtimes is challenging… but we have to face it. There’s reason why things happen the way it did… Only god and his messenger knows better... :) ~Patients and perseverance is the key to success~ (God’s will...)”. ”
Hmm… Changes…
UPDATES: Was out wif Nani yst… went to PRP… my usual spot… it’s not det I want to remember back our times… But, everywhere I go, there will always be memories of him… seriously EVERYWHERE! :,) sweet memories.. but all det is just memories now… cos he calls me now his “EX-lover”… means he loved me den… but now, not anymore… can’t do anything about det… jus hav to accept it anyway…;’) 2nd time she saw my tears… 1st was at downtown, during motivational camp… oh god. Miss det times wif 5nc… n den dis… but yeah.. tnx gal 4 det day:) appreciate it lots:) aku bilang kau psl our relationship.. tpi tk suroh kau benci dier k:) jiran kau tu… pernah ader ati kat kau jgk kan;P.. tpi kwn kau yg nie yg kener.. :) aper nk uat… da nasib… jgn kau benci dier sbb aku syg dier k gal:)
Nov will be going up to KL… Some 4life event… dunnoe where I just know it’s in KL… going der 4 1 day only.. cos I still hav skool…
Dec… having Family day, abi’s side… chalet at aloha… Planned to actually go to water breaker wif him... but now... hmm… I guess not… So gonna be der alone till early in the morning if am not sleepy yet… of cos need to prepare myself first...:) uat aper2 yg patot lah kn…
Date : Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Jika kau kata kita tidak sesuai… mengapa harus kau teruskan percintaan itu.. setelah kau berikan harapan padaku, setelah kau nyata kau ingin setia bersama utk selamanya.. aper makna nya 6 bulan bersama? Adakah duit segalanya bagi kamu? Bukan hanya dirimu mengalami perkara ini.. banyak lagi mengalaminya tetapi dlm situasi berbeza..
Aku tk akn menyatakan cintamu palsu jika hatiku tidak terluka dalam.. tpi mengapa jika kau kata kau cinta, tapi pada masa yg sama, kau kata kita tak sesuai?? Apa makna nya itu? Apa yg sebernarnya kau ingin nyatakan?? Kadang aku binggung melihat tingkah lakumu.. sebenarnya, dari mana dtg nya katamu?
Bukan niatku utk menyakiti hatimu.. terlalu byk kengangan bersamamu hingga tak pernah ku sangka akan jadi begini.. bukan aku yang ingin kita sebegini… keadaan yg memaksa kita.. sejak kau katakn yg kita tk sesuai, sejak itu lah cintamu jadi persoalan.. setiap hari ku tanyakn pada diriku.. di manakah silap ku?? And u know y I say det dun contact me anymore? It’s bcos of ur fb.. I’m not d type det will go 4 attached guys(det’s wat ur status say but I noe wat ur gonna say abt dis).. n I’m not d type yg akan terhegeh2 klau org tu dah tak sudi.. yg dia sendiri katakan yg kita tk sesuai.. ape sebenarnya semua ini padamu? Tk pernah aku berniat ingin memutuskn hubungan kita sama sekali.. aku hanya tidak mahu menggangu hidupmu.. aku hanya ingin memberimu apa yg kau inginkan.. masa.. ambillah seberapa byk masa yg kau inginkn.. aku mengerti.. Hanya ini yg dapat aku lakuakkn.. walau hati merintih, aku hanya dapat menerima apa yg berlaku keatas diriku.. U still keep ur promise?? Do u even know or remember wat u promised me? I guess not.. cos u made too many.. tk der yg perfect pada seseorang.. klau u kater perfect, it’s not true at all.. it is oni wen we are together.. wat we feel is it right.. I just feel complete wen I’m wif u.. der’s nothing that is perfect in sum1.. im not.. it’s how u accept the other party for being who they are.. det’s wat I did.. I accepted u 4 being u.. I dun really care of wat others think about u... doesn’t matter to me at all… apperance is te oni thing that they judge about u.. but they don't know u.. I tk pernah membenci dirimu.. mungkin caraku melukakan hatimu.. tapi hati yg melakukannya akan merasa lebih perit lagi.. Aku hanya dapat merelakan dan menerima apa yg berlaku.. ini semua atas kehendak nya.. Actually there’s nothing that blocks your way… It’s just part and parcel of life... I hope and pray that you’re able to get through this time... ~kesabaran dan ketabahan adalah kunci kejayaan~ Tk ada yg harus aku maafkn.. kerna pada diriku, aku tk pernah menyimpan dendam atau benci terhadap dirimu.. dan jika ada kesilapan, sudah aku maafkn.. tk perlu lah kau risau ttg apa yg ku fikirkn tentang dirimu sungguh tk ader perasaan benci pn… kerna di suatu masa dulu, kau pernah mampu buat ku tersenyum ikhlas, dari hati yang terdalm... tapi kini, semua itu hanya tinggal kengangan antara kita berdua.. ;( :) Missing you terribly... ;(
Date : Sunday, October 18, 2009
well today, went to PRP wif sibs... didn't sleep d prev night.. but at last cn have some peace of my mind.. jus spending time wif dem.. yeah every1 have his and her own prob... but dis is the oni way i think i could jus relax and dun think of my past.. throw away all the bitterness and hell det i went tru since sept... ders alot more fotos of us.. but i jus upload d edited 1's here.. if u wan to see more, jus go to my fb or tagged..:)
liriks pt1
Liriks pt 2
twice, 1 lesson learnt
~Phrases that comes from my heart~
Date : Saturday, October 17, 2009
i seriously dunnoe what to do right now.. *blank* MY fault 4 letting some1 into my heart det easily n as easy as det, den he let me go.. had a really hard fall.. n i guess i deserved it.. stupid me 4 believing and holding on to wat he said.. wat d hell was all det 6 mth 4?!?!?!?!?! telling me det u love me wen u dont? taking and sending me from skool wen u had det time.. saying det u wan to be wif me 4ever? it was hell 4 more den two weeks and even on my b'dae i can't smile sincierly bcos of dis. i know i hav 2 move on.. but where to start? n i seriously can't believe myself 4 all det i had done.. all det sleepless and late nights accompanying u msg wen u r working are all 4 dis.. now i understand... i dunnoe how to THANK YOU 4 dis.. det's wat u said right "just friends".. det's wat u said to all d gals.. but in reality, not just friends(view back ur foto comment).. u gave me hope det u'll b together 4ever.. calling ppl love, baby, dear.. det's all bullshit 4 me right now! u nvr meant d words you said. don't say u do.. cos wat i see right now is the truth.. u don't have to deny.. n i seriously can't belive it yet.. I won’t be falling dis hard if i were carefull wif my luv.. Dis is how u showed me ur luv.. dia yg ku kenal dahulu tidak seperti ini... dia yang ku kenal dahulu sering memberi tahu apa yg dia lakukn..
so much 4 promising everything det u did.. they are all lies in my eyes right now.. tolong berhenti beri kn alasan.. yang aku hanya ingin kn adalah penjelasan.. i shud have known from d start.. PRP.. d last time we really had time to spend together at det waterbreaker.... i'm not blind u.. but my heart is.. all thnx 2 myself 4 holding on to ur words.. i know dis was comming but i didn't prepare 4 it.. det was y i was quiet wen we were going back in d bas.. i kept it all to myself.. trusting u.. ur last kiss was diff.. ur hug was damn tight.. n det was d only time u hug me det tight..
Rinduku tiada erti lagi... Aku rindu setiap saat bersamamu, berada di sisimu, melihat senyumanmu, mendengar tawa riangmu, bicaramu, ucapan pagi dan malam setiap hari, Aku rindu kucupanmu, pelukanmu, genggaman tanganmu, manisnya kata2 dan janji yg kau beri.aku rindu panggilanmu,"Yang", "Syg", "Baby".... Aku terlalu merindui, namun semua ini tiada erti buatmu lagi... kerna kau sudah ada yg baru.. jadi yg lama, kau buang ketepi TERIMA KASIH CINTA, UNTUK SEGALANYA...
Belum pernah hatiku dilukai begitu dalam.. belum pernah aku menyayangi insan dn bernar2 aku cinta, dan kini berakhir sudah.. episod yg di beri nama, cinta remaja yg belum matang.. Belum kenal erti cinta sejati...
Aku tahu aku harus tabah.. semua ini atas kehendaknya.. dan terima kasih sekali lagi kerana memberiku peluang utk mengenali dirimu, terima kasih atas pengalaman yg telah kau berikn.. dn terima kasih juga akhirnya menjadi begini.. kau tinggalkn luka yg lebih dalam.. setelah kau ubati luka yg lama.. *mcm maner u lihat jam tangan yg i berikn pada u semasa hari jadi mu, yg calar.. sebegitu lah hati yg kau biar kn sekarang.. tk perlu kau rasa sedih.. kerana ada hati yg lebih sedih.. tk perlu kau meminta maaf.. kerana semua e2 tidak akn merubah keadaan.. Benarkah yg kau kata, aku tidak meminta apa2 byk dari mu.. "cuma kasih syg dan juga hati yg setia".. n det was already too much 4 u to handle?? lelaki.. kenapa kau harus buat aku begini.. jika mmg salahku, maafkn diriku dan bilang kesilapanku.. supaya ku dpt mengubah diri.. Supaya tidak akan ku melakukn kesialapan yg sama.. u said dun stress too much? how to? u were d 1 who made me dis way.. terlalu byk persoalan yg ingin ku tujukn.. namun, tk akan pernah kesampaian..
N people, we were NEVER attached.. but in my heart he was truely and deeply loved.. n it all no longer matters to him now.. i know:') cos wen it comes to me, nothing matters about me, right..:) Eventhough how hurt i am, i'll smile like nothing matters.. It's 3.42am in d morning.. have a rest ppl:) going out soon wif sibs to PRP.. at last cn have some peace of mind.. akan aku buang keperitan ku ini jauh2... tiada ertinya lagi buat yg di cintai...
~Biarkn aku mengubati sendiri hati ku ini~ jangan kau lakukn perkara yg sama terhadap dia yg menyintai.. hanya e2 yg ku pesan pada yang membaca..
Aku menulis ini, tetapi tidah semestinya aku membenci dirimu.. kerna padaku, ia tidak mungkin berlaku, kau telah byk menyinari hidup ku suatu masa dulu dgn kebahagiaan:) terima kasih cinta...
Jika benar ini salahku, katakan lah padaku, agar dapatku memperbetulkn kekhilafan diri..
Jangan kau kata aku tidak pernah membuat kesilapan.. kerana, jika aku tidak melakukan kesilapan, tak akan jadi begini..:(
Date : Monday, October 12, 2009
"Don’t say u love me unless u really mean it, because I might do something crazy like believe it." Don't say that you miss me cos u hav no idea wat it means 4 me to miss u.. Bt dis tym i reali will hav nuting 2 hold on 2.. it's just me n dis feeling.. I guess dett i hav 2 just stp hoping det u'll be by me.. Hav 2 learn 2 let go 1 more tym right?? hmm.. nyway tnx.. n hopefully dis will make me grow stronger.. reali feel stupid 2 give luv det easily... it's nt jus a little bt gave it all.. no matter wat, i'll nvr regret sumthing det 1's made me smile.. Hw good it feels 2 be me wen im wif u.. Hw i wish i cud go back in tym jus 2 prove 2 u det 4 me, we're more den jus friends & 1 last moment 2 hold u tight..
Well dis is a lssn 2 b learn... Heading to "12" wen i dun hav skol on thurs.. hope det i can let it out der n den.. n det's it.. no more.. had enuf..
~Khairiyah~ *12.10.09* *11.02pm*
Date : Sunday, June 14, 2009
kentot lar!!!
haha
pitam kaper!!!
haiyo.... 2dae have CT scanning @ CGH early in d morning @ 8am.
Had 2 fast 4 6hrs... n my throat very dry right now...
jus after d nurse injected d needle, felt like fainting... told d nurse.... den she ask me 2 put my head on d cushion that i use to put my hand 4 d nurse to put in d needle.
n yupp, i fainted.... dunnoe wat happen lar but wen i woke up, i was not upright on d chair that i was sitting.... And, 2 nurses were actually holding me. 1 assisted took d bed, put nxt 2 me, den 2 of dem carry me... haiyo.. haha cons-ferm kelam kabut semua... n naseb baek pat hospital sak...haha
~pe je iyah!!!~
Had my holidays bebeh:D
on 30 and 31 was @ KL
celebrated abi's b'dae der....was surpossed 2 b a suprise...but i dunnoe lar is it a suprise for abi...cos he got his quran ready and all... was near masjid India...well did not buy nything... oni lanyard/ hp stripe... bought 2 but gave 2 Aza:) actually gave him 2... det's all i bought @ KL...
and on d 12, 13 and 14, was out of s'pore oso, (Mama lang ajak...)
12 went up 2 Melaka and slept at skudai...
13 was @ kota tinggi waterfall and sleep at skudai.
and last day oni @ skudai...went home in d morning, parents masok jb in d morning 2 isi minyak...fetch me otw... so yar....
det's all i guess...
Date : Monday, June 08, 2009
Mungkinkah luahan hanya mainan kata....
Sudah lama tidakku menulis,
Tulisan dari hati.
Walau sentiasa ia di lukai,
Namun aku tetap tabah menghadapi.
Kadang aku bingung sendiri
Tidak tahu apa yg harus aku lakukan
Tidak tahu yg mana harus ku percaya
Ini lah dugaan yg harus ku lalui
Hanya disini aku berdiri
Menanti jwapan yg belum pasti
Kata-katamu sering aku persoalkan,
Aku hanya inginkan penjelasan.
Bibirmu kata cinta
Namun yg ku lihat hanyalah dusta
Bukannya aku tidak mahu percaya,
Tapi apakan daya.
Bibirmu kat cinta
Tapi darimana dtgnya kata-katamu?
Adakah dari dlm hatimu?
Atau hanya hiasan di bibir saja?
Atau kah mungkin, kamu hanya seperti awan yang berlalu dalam hidupku?
Berlalu nya awan yang hanya seketika cuma...
Dan ia akan sentiasa berubah...
Tapi aku tahu...
Semua ini atas kehendaknya...
07/06/09
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Date : Saturday, May 23, 2009
had a danm great day yst:) weee hehe went out wif my sis, her guy, n my ttm:P well..... was really a mixed up day.... did not plan well at all....got alot of last minute changes and all.... planned to watch movie wif him and then makan.... but in the end cancelled the movies... i msged him at 1 30, 1 53 and at 1 55. he oni called at 1 59. was already late sey....i was waiting for the bus wen he called. So....he said he will miss call biler nk klua. reached tamp MRT station at around 2 20. sis n her guy already waiting. so i ask dem to leave 1st cos i noe he will be danm late. walk around for awhile at Alano and at 2 30 i msg tanyer belom klua agi??? den he miss kol. ishk like tak sakit hati kaper.... 15 mins past but still belom nmpk pon batang idung dier (yg mancong tu haha)... waited for 20 mins. den i msg him again. ckp suroh balik uma da i mlz nk 2nggu... kasi abes kerje u 2.... i was alreadi walking to d interchange going towards bass 81... wen he called. saying that he jus reach interchange.... pissed off readi tau... sakit hati...every time kener 2nggu dier jek... dah mengamok...aku ckp jek pat dier suroh dier balik... dier bleh tanyer agik apasal? ish aku teros tarok lah talipon 2... pas2 dier kol agik....tanyer aku pat aner...so bilang jer lah... but still i ask him to go home..... hmph. :( tahan geram punyer pasla smpai klua airmata. lucky he nvr saw. tak kener marah agik.... lepas dier smpai 2 dier ader ckp sori tapi aku tk pandang pon muker dier tros jalan g MRT.... all d way la he try to pujuk me...but i say, no use saying sori if he will do it again... sampai dlam tarin lar he ask me to smile pon i don noe how to.... da betol2 mood gone to zero.... tapi sayang pe pasal, aku tetap teros kn perjalanan ge The Cathay.... nasib baik aku smgngan my sis, bleh jugak uat aku senyum. lau tak, smpai pat saner pon aku tk senyum.... smpai pat saner da pukol 4 lebih around 4.15 gituk....at first tak tau nk tgk movie aper...den tgk punyer tgk....decide nk tgk night at the musium lar...tapi statrt time pukol 6 45... ish tak jadik lar... sis suroh 2run bugis....so kiter mkn pat BK lar... half way 2... umi kol... tk mampos aku.... ahaha dah 2... sis suroh 2nggu pat bas stop dkt c2 jugak...belom abes mkn...da last bite 2... sis msg tanyer dabes mkn belom...tk nk diorang tungg lamer kn...aku suroh dier bukak mulut....suap kn lar det last bite....alallala so swit hahahahha pe jek. da klua 2....dari jaoh 2...dier da tersengih2....pat my kakak pe matair...haha dey know each other...bukan 2 jek...dey have blood relation ship...sedare jaouh lar kater kn....\hmmm...sudah ku sangka.... tinggal dekat pulak 2....bagos jugak...senang ckit... lau nk jumper dier, ajak sis sekali...jadi dier bleh jumper matair dier skali...haha....kn3;) (*Winkz*) ;)
lepas 2, kiter naik bass from bugis, all d way to Pasir Ris interchange....dlm bas pon dier bleh jumper kwn dier...ish2 besepah sungguh hehe sis suroh 2run pat interchange cos dier nk beli barang agik.... den after det, kiter jalan balik lar hehe:) weee hmmm but d sad thing is, i didn't get 2 hug him like we usually do wen he sends me till d lift... tapi kelakar lar 2 due org...yg kasi salam pat luar lift and yg jwb salam pon pat luar jugak... hehe means my sis nyer matair kasi slam, den my syg jwb salam....hehe kiut lar nie 2 ekor...opss... i mean guys:) now, i wan go out again, go bugis buy sumthing... bye ppl....:) smile owaez...
